Well....I had a very fun and eventful 3-day weekend. For Saturday and Sunday, my mother and I got together, and she bought a hotel room for us. Partly as a birthday present for me, and partly because I was invited to a wedding of my friends
Then afterwards, my mother and I retreated back to the hotel and I knocked out. I like to be that tired. So fast forward to Monday. I got so many birthday wishes on my Facebook page, it was crazy! Good thing I anticipated that would happen and put my phone on vibrate Sunday night. ^_^ I think Facebook is an awesome thing at times, but when it comes to birthdays, I wonder...if I made it so that my friends didn't get the announcement on their pages when they log on...would they remember?? Probably not. And that's sad. Anyway....Monday, my mother and I left the hotel, because she had to go to work and she just took me home. I lounged around for a few hours and then later in the night...around 8pm...my co-worker picked me up and took me to the Cheesecake Factory! ^_^ Though it was no surprise, because we had agreed to this days before. I notified other friends and they came as well. So it ended up being a total of nine people! I was very impressed, happy and thankful!
But that was pretty much my weekend. I apparently have other stuff going on for June and July. June, I have a baby shower in Lynchburg that I am attending, and July I have yet another 3 day weekend to look forward to(Since the fourth falls on a Monday this year), as well as Kings Fest with my friends Kat and Ashley. So I am excited.
But that's about it. Yays! ^_^
So since I have nothing to say. I will leave you with this:
For one day only, you get to ask me one question. Any question you want. But everyone who asks a question is guaranteed some sort of honest answer. The only caveat is that you must be logged in; I'll be ignoring questions that are anonymous under the assumption that they're trolls If I'm brave enough to answer you should be brave enough to ask.
Since experiencing my own personal loss of a close friend to suicide, as well as having struggled with depression/suicidal thoughts and attempts myself, I feel that now more than ever I should be a part of helping to bring awareness and help to those that are silently struggling with things in their lives and don't know how to approach it or ask for help.
"That's great, Nikkia!" you say. "If there is anything I can do to help, please let me know!" Well...as a matter of fact, there is. I need to raise money. My personal goal for my walk is $150. I'm not the type of person to ask for money...but it's for a good cause and you can rest assured knowing that your money would go towards either educational programs/resources, research, campaigns, etc. But anything you give would be more than appreciated. And apparently it's 100% tax deductible.
But if you can do nothing else, please spread the word about this. Below, you will find the link to my "fundraising page".(It tells you all that you need to know about how to donate and gives you more in depth information about the foundation) Feel free to forward it on to other friends/family, etc. If nothing else, cruise the website and just be in prayer that all this effort will not be in vain, and that God will use that organization to help to save lives.
http://afsp.donordrive.com/index.cfm?fu
Thanks again!
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Iron Man 2!!!!
This weekend was a lot of fun filled with lots of "belated birthday" goodness. Saturday, I hung out with
Sunday, I went to church.(After much contemplating about it, which is a bad thing)--But I figured, if I am sitting and thinking that hard about whether I should go or not, I should go. So I went, and I felt much better. Afterwards, I spent the rest of the day with
Then after that, we walked around Springfield Mall, Borders bookstore and then headed back to my side of town, walked around, got ice cream, and then departed. It always feels nice to walk around Old Town with someone. Sometimes, just being alone isn't as exciting.
Other things that are happening:
I now own an iPod nano, and Sony Dock for it. And I couldn't be happier with it. It will do for now, until I can afford to get a better one that will hold all of my songs.
I am moving yet again. Closer to my job again. With a friend from my church, and I can't wait. Hopefully this will stay permanent for a while.
I have made an appointment to meet with a therapist. Hopefully this will work(in general). Although, I am realizing a downfall with this one person and her timing. If I move...she is across the street from my job. The bus that would take me home would come at 8:24pm. Our session would start at 8. Hmm. Which is one of the main reasons that I wanted to find someone who would be available on the weekends. But anyway!
Other than that, things are good right now. We shall see how things play out.
What's been going on with me, you wonder? Well...
I've been wanting to type something here for a while, but haven't been able to get the thoughts to translate outside of my head. Outside of Katsucon's awesomeness, much has happened.
I have reconnected with Jenny. Which is good.
I have started from scratch with distancing myself from Matt. When I think of a friendship, I think of an equal amount of give and take from both parties, good and bad times, and lasting memories. I do not think that saying that one is a friend and then ignoring their attempts to reach out and BE a friend is much of a friendship. I don't toot my horn very often. In fact, I don't do it much at all. But I am a pretty good person and a good friend to those that know me. Being ignored without so much as an explanation is very disrespectful, and I don't deserve to be treated that way if I have done nothing *to* deserve it.
I am awaiting the Cherry Blossom festival that is coming up at the end of this month. I might not go the Saturdays and Sundays of all the weekends of its duration, though. Right now, I'm thinking that maybe a Saturday might do. Unless other friends express interest in wanting to go on other days. I will be attending by myself.
I am taking a few days off at the beginning of April. One reason is so that I can finally take this ASVAB. I'm tired of thinking about it. Tired of stressing about it. Another reason is because it will be the one year anniversary of Antwane's passing. And the 9th is on a Friday, I believe. I don't think I will be in much of a mindset to work. And I really don't want to either, if I can help it. I think that I have been doing pretty well in dealing. But as reminders pop up, I tend to get very depressed and longing for him.
I can't wait for this weekend though. I plan on going to see Alice In Wonderland. :)